Friday, May 3, 2013

What happens when you can't sleep and a conversation plays in your head?

You write down the ramblings and just go from there.

May 02, 2013
1 something am

Life is not a matter of self preservation, it’s a matter of living. You might never get everything you want; and sometimes a belief that anything else is better than just a little something, creeps up your head too.

Pride pushes you to make a choice, fear makes you realize how you truly feel, and strength gives you the first step to anything else. So which one do you value most? Pride, Fear, or Strength?

I choose Pride.

All my life had been a matter of ups and downs, of observing, and analyzing. Why can’t a person realize that nothing in this world matters more than self respect? If you don’t respect yourself, how can you live with it? Knowing everyday that I can walk through any path with my head held up, is the best route to take. I will not let any part of myself be tarnished because of a decision that I know I will regret.

I choose Fear.

All my life had been a matter of seeing, thinking and feeling. Why can’t anyone realize that fear is not something to be tossed aside? Without it, how will you have the option to be brave? Fear is the key to opening your mind to what really is. If you fear, then you will know what unfinished burdens are left in your heart. I would rather feel the truth, and accept the fear and damage so I can learn from it, than toss it all aside and pretend like I can just do anything without regard.

I choose Strength.

All my life had been a matter of countless mind battles, conflict, and challenges. Why can’t anyone realize that if you let these things consume you, you will fall and never get back up? Strength is the only way to live life. With enough strength, you can move on the stairs of life. It’s alright to numb yourself of certain things. If those things aren’t worth anything or are no longer worthy enough, then why would you choose to acknowledge it?

Life is not a matter of self preservation, it’s a matter of living; and living does not mean you have to choose just one way to do it. You have to apply your pride under the rightful eye of God, or whoever/whatever controls your mind’s accord. You have to fear, and lose pretense of how you intend the world to see what you are “fake feeling.” You have to have strength to face the unknowing. Everybody has a choice to make. Would you rather be held back in preservation, or be sure that you live in emergence of who you truly are?


No comments:

Post a Comment